plan reason . .

why i can't get some thing better for this year ? . i got love with my cousin ? . that is the big stupid do in this last year . not only stupid i say more d*mn think to him . that can make him think that i realy realy love him . now i make some reason .that have to say something slowly to him . that i cant love him . cos i'm his cousin . but i afraid i make him hurt . what i have t do ??? .